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    November 23

    Black BLACK friday

    So I have found that there is very much 1 thing 10 times worse than Ebay.... the day after Thanksgiving.....
     
    Wow, I have never spent so much money... ok, yes I have, but not recently...
     
    So I now have nifty new Sony Vaio laptop, A Phillips dvd player with surround sound system (it also plays divx!!!), and my first MP3 player.  What a day... Now if only I was'nt so tired....
     
    Yes, I did show up at Best Buy last night at 11 PM and sit there with my cousins (and Jen) until 3 in the morning, when we got vouchers for the really cool items, then waited around for another 2 hours till 5 when the doors opened.  Me and BJ got the only two Phillips DVD/suround sound packages they had (they were supposed to have at least four, but we didn't find any others...) and then I booked to the Computer line, where I was probably one of the first 15 people to get my computer.
     
    So, yeah, i made out pretty good...  and pretty bad...
    Good buy money.
     
     
    November 19

    ...In a Valley By the Sea (EP)...

    When I first put this CD on, I wasn't completely thrilled, but it did catch my attention.  Now, a few weeks later, I'm completely hooked.  There are only 7 songs (hence the EP), and only 5 of those are new songs, but each track is amazing.  First of all, Second Chance may be my new favorite United song, ever.  What can I say? I'm a sucker for the "typical" United medium to slow song with the sudden build up.  I love it.

     

    The first three songs are all great upbeat songs that each make you think of the typical Hillsong upbeat song, but they are just different enough that you don't get instantly sick of them (ala Everyday/King of Majesty/One Way/etc).  Did I mention that these songs ARE great?

     

    I'm sorry.  I'm probably giving this cd to much credit, but I got it just as I was getting sick of the All of the Above CD and it was just the difference I needed.  As much as I really loved the Studio recording of AotA, I'm really glad that the United guys haven't completely cut us off from the LIVE worship experience.

     

    Get this CD.

    November 14

    Ebay: the Downfall of Mankind

    No, but seriously, Ebay could end up being the end of society as we know it.  How could this be? It comes down to one very simple thing, overspending.
     
    What do bored people do? They get on the internet, and everyone on the interent eventualy visits Ebay.  It might not happen at first, but the more time a person spends on Ebay looking for the things they wish they could buy, the better the prices seem to get.  Pretty soon, this thing you've always thought was pretty neat shows up for a relative bargin, and you bid.  Then, sometimes, you win.
     
    You know you didn't need it, and yeah, $50 is a good price, but it was $50 you didn't need to spend and you deside you won't be doing that again anytime soon.
     
    Until you get bored a couple days later...  You don't plan on buying anything, but you start to check the prices on this other item you wanted.  Then, BOOM, before you know it you've just purchased another completely unneeded item.  It's adictive.
     
    I'll be the end of Mankind.
    November 12

    I'm back to MSN!!! WOOt!

    So, after about 2 years of giving up on this amazing little thing called MSN spaces, I return.
     
    The reality is, Myspace doesn't really have much as far as options are concerned.  I also like how the blog is the, or can be, the main focus of the MSN space.
     
    So, yeah, not that anybody ever really checks this thing out anymore, but here is an update. I have a new job (now down graded to "newer" job). I am longer part of the restraunt industry.  I no longer spend a large chunk of my life preparing food for 100s of other people's consumtion. Now I talk with old people who don't know how to use their computer, and try to make them understand...
     
    Well, at least the pay is better.
     
    My spare time gets split between hanging out at my friends' place in TC, hanging out with my cousins, and, everyonce in awhile, actualy spending time at home.  I've been trying to do more of the latter, but it doesn't usualy turn out that way.
     
    To night I will be watching a lot of TV programing.  Monday and Thursdays are the only days I really watch tv shows (although I will eventualy start watching Lost on Wednesdays again), and I missed last monday, meaning i need to catch up today.  What will I be watching? Heroes of course. This is one amazing show that, honestly, I don't always enjoy watching, but I HATE missing. It is weird like that.  The other show that I feel a need to watch every Monday night is Chuck.  I LOVE THIS SHOW.  It is consistantly entertaining.  It is a great geek show for the mainstream audience.  I would try to explain everything I love about it, but I wouldn't be able to do it justice.  just watch it.
     
    Ok.  I'm done.  I'll be back.
    April 11

    spring time

    Hello spring!
    Hello Ryan's allgeries!
    Hello Alegra!
     
    Why is it that my favorate season of the year must be the one that makes my body turn upon itself for no reason?  It doen't seem right to me.  I would thing that my subconsious mind would, through the power of perswation, make my body respond to the different things in the air with positive side effects... Perhaps I could have more energy when i wake in the morning?  Maybe my eyes could clear up, instead of blurr...  I don't know, maybe my body could form ant-allergies, where it makes thing better rather than worse...
     
    But i know, I'm just dreaming...
    March 29

    some sharing of songs...

    I was just sitting around tonight digging through some old writings when I found a couple short little songs that i had forgotten about.  I say old, but there are probably from only a month or to ago...  Still long enough for me to forget them.  I was pleasantly surprised that they were actualy pretty neat.  I like them, and so I desided to put them up here for the world to see.  There is no music, and if there ever is music I will have to probably rewrite some parts, or add some... or something, because these are by no means publishable...  still I like them.  They are very much me.
     
    So with out further ado...
     
    Today
     
    It's not just another day,
              not today.
    Tomorrow? It'll get here when it comes,
    But today is just beginning.
     
        Oh, how I hope for joy today...
        Don't let me down, not today...
     
    I should be with You...
              with You today.
    I can't wait till tomorrow, no...
    I need Your hope today.
     
        Oh, how I need You here today.
        You won't let me down, not today, not ever.
     
              You are the one who wipes away all tears
              You are the one who makes us all laugh
              You are the one who lived and died for me
              You gave everything to be my everything today.
     
    Be my love,
    Be my peace,
    Be my strength,
    Be my joy,
    Be my hope,
    Be my dream.
    Be my everything in everything.
     
     
    Fairest Jesus
     
    Fairest Jesus:
    You are my everlasting source of strength,
    In You I live, and move, and have being.
     
    The beauty from of Your throne is beyond my imagination:
    Far beyond any universial measure.
    You are God, and Your holiness is pure and true.
     
    Be worship and adored.
    Be praised in song with singing.
    Be lifted high before all men,
    And let them be drawn to You.
     
     
     
     
    Yup... So that's pretty much it.  I've got a few other songs that I've not forgotten about that are very slow in coming, and that is probably because ihavn't really spent any time on them in the last month.  Where does my time go?  Never mind, I think I know...
     
    Anyways, finding these excited me and I felt like sharing.
    March 11

    O' Happy day

     
     
    I don't know what's been up with me lately...  I've been very iritable, stressed out, not feeling all that happy and such...  especialy at work.  There are many factors that could be at fault.  One may be the many late nights as of late, and hence the lack of sleep.  Another may be the mixing up of things at work and being stuck on positions that I am not used to and having that hanging over my head...  Then there could be the fact that I'm starting to come to terms with going back to school, which is kind of a scary thought...  Or it could be this gaint wall that seems to have popped up between God and I in the midst of all of this crap... 
     
    None of these things are really that bad (except for the whole God wall thing), but the combination of it all seems to have freaking out a bit... :)
     
    Makes me smirk because life really isnt bad...  I think the biggest thing for me is just preparing for the future... makeing plans for school and trying to still keep my options open... and then not having any sort of direction or conformation from above... It is making me feel like I'm out on a limb with no net, and no idea exactly how big the limb is (or how much it can hold). 
     
    I know that I should be living in faith, and I am...  I really am.  But it is so very hard for me to feel right about any part of my life when my Spiritual life doesn't seem to be agreeing with itself...  There is so much relience that I've put in what God is planning todo with my life...  It has been in my heart and part of everything I am that God is going to something big with me.. with my church... with my family, with my community...  I've always felt like being a part of that was my calling in life.  Maybe I'm just a lazy guy who's looking for an easy way out of life by just getting up and leadding worship music and getting paid for it, but I don't think so. The enire time I've been going to college I've never expected to get a degree... I really never did.  I figured that God was going to move in some huge way before I ever had a chance to get one and that I'd be needed full time to work with the church or something...  That or be out touring with the badn, or something.
     
    Lofty dreams... I know...  BAsed on reality?   I don't know...  The troubling part is that I've had so many people speak into my life over the years... People who have had no idea who I am.. No idea what my hopes and dreams are, but they spoke to those dreams, confirmed them... told me that I was in God's hands and everything was going as planned.  Lately these people have been  speaking about things more imediate.  No longer are all of these dreams supposed to be on there way...  They are supposed to be arriving.  Explosive things are supposed to happening... but I feel deader than I've felt in years...
     
    I know, we don't live our lives by our feelings... but it still sucks...  a lot...  I suppose this could be one last lesson before the real test... Can I live by faith?  Can I know that God is in control and be ok with that even though I don't feel like its all okay? 
     
    that, or maybe I'm just really really messed up and I really am in need of fixing my life...
     
     
    :)
     
    Hmm...  Ok, sorry for the depressing sounding blog.
     
    Really thoguh, my life has its high points.  God has given me good friends, and they make life better, and he is still sround and shows Himself when I need him the most.
     
    So just ignore all the crap I just wrote.
     
    Ryan
    February 17

    the ryan update

    What a day?
     
    It's a question, I know.
     
    What a week?
     
    I really don't know.
     
    I really don't know much of anything right now.
     
    I'm bored, kind of tired and feeling completely and utterly...  um... I was going to use the word wasted, but that would inmply alcohol was involved... and it isn't.  Caffeen and sugar most definatly is though.
     
    This has been a good week.  This has been a Ryan week, and it has been a good "God" week too.  What does it mean to be a good God week?  It means that I actualy kind of got my head on straight and accepted the offers that he gave me to spend time with him.
     
    It's been wierd.  It has been a really long time since I would just start to get "the feelling" that it was time for some quite time with him.  I would be sitting, either reading a book, listening to music, or watching TV... and then I would just have this...  I hate to continously use the worf feeling... but this strong emotion would just reach down and take me...  I know I needed some time with God, and I knew he wanted that time with me.
     
    It made for some strong moments...  But, strangly enough, it has motivated me to want to do "something" but I really havn't gott anymore of an ideaof what the something is.  So now I've been looking more into the whole couseler stuff and schooling, and I'm planning on spending a lot of time recording music this weekend (I have monday off...  so I'm thinking Sunday - Monday is recording time...).  Other than those things, I'm also trying to get myself back into the habit of writing more.  I do love to write, and I've got some ideas for book/comic/movie, but I have a hard time sitting down and forcing this stuff out onto a sceen of paper (I'm trying to mostly on the computer because my hand writing is horrible).
     
    But yeah, so there is your Ryan update.
    February 15

    Snow snow snow

    Do you want to know what i did last night?
     
    I drove home on CRAPPY roads.  If there is one thing I hate about Kalkaska, it is when you are driving from TC home and you hit that line just past Hill road and suddenly your driving in a blizard.  Always.  It sucks.  And the worst part about it is when people don't understand that there is a sudden change and don't take the steps neccisary to not die.  I saw two people in the ditch within 1 mile of where the snow started...
     
    Anyways, this all leads to a happy thing.  I figured that I would have to get up and go clean off a foot of snow off of my car this morning, but there is nothing on it.  So the snow just wanted to fall while I was driving and not afterwards.  And I'm actualy quite ok with that.
     
    Well, I'm off to work another open to close day.  Two ina row, but I brought it upon myself, so no complaining here.  Now I will have a whole day to do nothing on monday, and that is much better than an evening to do nothing.  Of course the whole idea of getting a day to do nothing is so that I can, in fact, do something.  Hopefully I will either goto TC and get some college stuff taken care of, or else i will do some writeing, or some guitar practise (I do need to change my strings too), or finish cleaning my room.  Something other than nothing though.  maybe...
     
    Ok, Ryan out.
    February 09

    Jeremiah 9

    My reading for today...

     

     

     

    23Thus says the Lord:

        “Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom,

        Let not the mighty man glory in his might,

        Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;

    24    But let him who glories glory in this,

        That he understands and knows Me,

        That I am the Lord, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth.

        For in these I delight,” says the Lord.

     

    February 08

    It's wednesday night and everyone is sweet... (#1Gun line for you... kind of)

     

     

    I am superhappy and axcited.  Yesterday i was checking out the website for one of my favorate bands: Something Like Silas, and found out that their new album is being produced by the same guy who produced MAE's last album.  That is awesome.  The Everglow (by Mae) is my favorate CD since the first Something Like Silas CD, the production on it was top notch, and I am now greatly antisipating this new SLS cd even more.

     

    I just hope it doesn't take to long in post production.  If they are recording it now, then, it may be out in May, at the earliest, but maybe not till July or Augest...  And since i havn't seen an official date set, i really have no cluie...

     

    Speaking of MAE, I would love it if they made another B-sides cd to go with The Everglow.  I acutaly enjoyed their B-sides cd that went with Destination:Beautiful more than the regular album, but it wasn't THAT great of an album to begin with (but not bad).

     

    ...

     

    I spent about 4 hours playing and recording some simple Acoutic w/vocal tracks last night, and I've pretty well desided that I'm not happy with any of it.  The first song I recorded is probably the best one, but it needs a whole lot of work.  I tried focusing on a couple songs that I was pretty confident with , but as I played through them and prepared to record them, i found that I was extremely dissatisfied with them.  Perhaps I'm overly critical.  I don't know, but I feel that if I'm going to be writing songs, that I need to get a small group of people to go over my stuff and be critically helpful.  People who will say, "Hey, this doesn't make sense to me." or "This verse really doesn't seem to fit witht he rest of this song." or even "This song is crap, you need to just scrap it."

     

    I even need help with the music aspect.  I used to spend more time with my guitar then i do now, and with that I was a lot more creative musicaly, but lately everything i try to play sounds the same, and not only is it all the same, but it is all super lame-o.  Perhaps I just need to make more time for playing...  I don't know.

     

    Anyways, for anyone who care (and I'm sure nobudy really does), I'm kind of getting my room clean.  Wow, there is a whole lot of garbage.  Mostly papers lieing around on my desk and bedboard, but still... lots of waste...

    Oh well.

    January 30

    If the begining has an end, this is it... right?

    Wow...  I was really bored tonight, so amung the many things I thought I'd do tonight, I figures watching the Red Wings would be one of them.  Boy... no one plays hockey like the Red Wings.  No one.
     
    After the first period, they are up 4-0 over the Minnisota Wild.
     
    It is fun, but also boreing, and, hense, I am blogging again.
     
    ...
    ...
    ...
     
    I was going to goto Jon and Tab's tonight, but as the time came to leave, i was caught lieing in my bed not wanting to get up (the hockey game was just getting started).  Hero Clix is realy fun in princable, and I enjoy it enought to spend money on it, but when it comes time to play an actual game I find myself rather bored and not really enjoying it much...  So, the idea of playing that didn't really motivate me to get up to much either.
     
    I was also thinking about bowling tonight.  I havn't bowled for about 2 weeks, and that is a sad thing, but the only people going tonight were the Smith brothers.  Now, I love Adam and Ryan, heck, they were my leage team when we won a few years back(so you know I gotta love'm), but sitting around Traverse City for six hours with no one to hang out with and nothing to do just didn't seem worth the hour of fun with the boys.  And the gas money for driving all thye way back into to T.C. just isn't worth it either (we're talkning about 5 bucks for a trip these days...).  So no bowling this week, maybe next week.
     
    Where does this leave me? Here doing nothing.
     
    On the bright side of things, even though I proved myself stupid, I still had a good day today.  The only thing i can think is this: even though I felt completely disconnected from all the awesomeness this last weekend (mainly because I felt like crap due to illness), I picked up somegood stuff in the spirit... That and I'm still waiting to find the after effects of the Toronto trip (other than this sickness...). 
     
    So yeah, this weekend was Snow Camp.  It was smaller than i expected, about 20 "campers" were there, but the Holy Spirit was there too, and when He's there, the rest of the count doesn't matter.  I struggled through worship all weekend.  It was bad enought that I couldn't really sing very well (but I couldn't sing at all before or after the weekend, so God definatly did something to make it so could sing over the weekend),  but the the fact that I just felt extremely tired and worn out all weekend really made it hard to concentrate.  But the kids seemed to like the worship times, a lot of them paid me complements... which I brushed off in tiypical Ryan fashion... I like that people compliment me, but, to be honest, I never really know how to handle it.  What I'm doing is for God, and, yes, I'm talented, but I don't want you to be focused on my talent, i want you to be focused on God.  When people compliment me, I feel that by accepting that compliment that I'm somehow stealing honor from God.  I know that that is not true, but it's how I feel.  I will say that I have attempted to be more direct with accepting compliments because people have told me in the past that I need to be, but it doesn't always work out that way, like this weekend.
     
    Yeah, so even though I didn't really feel as though I "entered in" to what was going on this weekend, I could still tell that it was good stuff.  The kids were really going all out in their pursuit of God and what he wanted for them.  I thought Dawn(e?) did a great job speaking Saturday morning and Sunday.  Kris... Kris didn't really speak, as is normal, because he was to busy ministering to the kids.
     
    OK.
     
    I'm feeling a bit tired now, so I'll be heading to bed... where I will not sleep for a little while because it is only 9:20.
    January 08

    The Super Duper INFP

    OK... so I was bored, and when I get bored I tend to surf the web... And by surfing, i mean that visit a couple comic sites, and hopefully find some interesting new articals about upcomeing series and stuff, but in the event that there is nothing new to find, I tend to revisit one subject amtter that I have completely worn out... Personality types.
     
    So today I was on similarminds.com to try out some non-Meyers-Briggs tests, but ended up finding the similar minds own discriptions of the 16 MBTI types.  Saddly, their INFP discription is quite depressing:
     
    creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwellmed  by unpleasant feelings, prone to quitting, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, low self confidence, emotionally moody, can feel defective, prone to lateness, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, prone to sadness, prone to dreaming about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, can act without thinking, private, can feel  uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, more likely to support marijuana legalization, can sabotage self, likes the rain, sometimes can't control fearful thoughts, prone to crying, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, can be submissive, prone to feeling discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not always prepared, can feel victimized, prone to confusion, prone to irresponsibility, can be pessimistic
    Talk about a loser!  I'll admit that it doesn't take much to put me out for a couple days emotionaly, but I always bounce right back with a new energy and excitiment for life and its possiblities.  This disciption makes it sound like INFPs are victumes of serious life long depression.  Let me attest to the fact that an INFP's life isn't all that bad.
     
    Maybe this is supposed to be a discription of what its like to not have Jesus and be an INFP, because that might make more sense.  With out him I'd probably be a wreck like that all the time because he is my escape when the negativity gets to be to much.  I think to much about my future and its uncertianties, and have way to many hope for things to came for me to not have someone to trust with all of those hopes and dreams.  If it was just me vs. the world.. yeah, I'd probably give it up.
     
    By the way, the Marijuana legalization thing cracks me up... like you can tell that by a personality type.
     
    here is one MBTI result for me (only 24 questions though):
     
    INFP - "Questor".
    High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values.
    4.4% of total population.*
     
    note that being an INFP in these few sentences seems much more pleasent...
     
    Here is my results from the Big 5 test, an alternative to the MBTI:
     
    Big Five Word Test Results
    Extroversion - (34%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and private.
    Accommodation - (64%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense of your own individual development (martyr complex).
    Orderliness - (28%) low which suggests you are overly flexible, random, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
    Emotional Stability - (62%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
    Inquisitiveness - (56%) moderately high which suggests you are intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.*
     
     
    I'm not a big fan of this test... not nearly as... complete.. as the Myers-Briggs.  Mainly, I don't like the lack of difference between being logical and going with your gut (T and F).  Here is the discription of my Big 5 type:
     
    avoidant, often late, patient, rarely prepared, non-aggressive, slow to judge others, withdrawn, unconcerned with image, relaxed, avoids crowds, easy going, not demanding, low maintenance, unambitious, not domineering, private, thinks before acting, concerned with the feelings of others, not wild and crazy, not controlling, does not like to show anger, hard to offend, dislikes the spotlight, uninterested in leading, not competitive, overly nice, not physically affectionate with most people, not bothered by disorder, level emotions, does not second guess self, agnostic/atheistic tendencies, not picky about food, not relationship obsessed, unproductive, unimposing, plain in appearance, disorganized, loner, lower energy level, very curious, uninterested in prestige/fame, not superficial, likes difficult reading material, does not get worked up about most things, fearless, flexible, trusting, does not stick to plans, easily distracted, interested in science, unconcerned that people have trouble reading them, a good loser, modest, not swayed by emotions
     
    It starts off close, but then begin to get away from what makes me me... So...  Close, but, sorry, no cigar for you Big 5.
     
    Ok, well that's enough fun for now... I think I will pst this and see if the HTML codes I copied will actually show up right...
     
    Ryan
     
    * yeah... the HTML didn't show up right... so I just edited it so it was readable.
    January 07

    So bizzare

    Another night is here, and I am here also.
     
    How does that strike you folks?
     
    Yeah... it didn't do anything for me either.
     
    I am sitting here, after a long tiring day of mostly doing mostly nothing.  I woke up about nine this moring, actualy got up about 1/4 after 10 when I couldn't stand watching the minute slowly tick by any longer, and then continued sitting around doing nothing.
     
    I watched a lot of ESPNews today, and even watched a bit of college basketball (the lady spartans won today: You go girls!).  Then, my parents got home and realised that other people excisted on this planet and that, perhaps, they would like it better if I didn't stink to high heaven...
     
    So I showered.
     
    That was ok.  Not to exciteing, but it felt nice.
     
    So... then I actualy did something.
     
    What did I do?  I dug out my MIDI footcontroler (see picture) and desided it was time to program it and make it workable for my amp.  I mean, I did spend $130 on it a little over a year ago, and I don't want it to be a waste.  Now its not, because I've got it working beautifuly.
     
    Let me add this, even though it has nothing to do with my pedal... The Patriots are good.  I don't think they are the best ever, but they are good.  Poor Jacksonvill never stood a chance.
     
    Ok.. After I finished with my pedal it was time to head up to the church for the monthly area worship service.  There wasn't the diversity of churchs there that there was last time, but it still turned out to be a great evening.  Worship felt weird, but was still pretty good, and when God shows up, like he did, than it doesn't really matter how the music was.  Final thought on the evening?  God is good.
     
    Now I'm here, watching the later football game, and feeling rather bored and tired.  So I will probably finish this here, and then go downstairs and get some water, and then come back up and goto sleep... because, as I said, I'm tired.
     
    Hmmm... but before I sign off...  let me tell you of my HATE for STINK BUGS!  My room just seems to produce them nonstop... I don't even know where these things are comeing from, but there is always at least one, if not more, crawling around and anoying me.  The worst thing is when they deside to try and fly, but they can't, aty least not well, because they are stupid stink bugs.  But you don't dare try to kill one... no no.  Because if you dod they make a stink... not a horrable in your face smell, but one of those sneaky... wiffy smells that drive you nuts because you just get enough of it to make you think "ewe! That kind of nasty." 
     
    I don't like stink bugs.
     
    Ok... night all.
     
    Ryan
    January 03

    HNY

    It's a new year!

     

    Hurray!

     

    But what does this new year bring?

     

    I really don't know, but I feel it will be good stuff.

     

     

    December 17

    bum bum mub

    It has dawned on that I was going to sit down and write another blog about sitting around doing nothing and that blogs about doing nothing is all I seem to write...
     
    Perhaps it is because I only deside to blog when I am bored and have nothing better to do?
     
    Hmmm...
     
    Having nothing to do is a funny thing.
     
    Even with out having school this year, I still find myself feelling like there is something that I should be doing that I'm putting off when I sit around, even though there is nothing for me to do.  Makes me feel kind of useless I guess.  There should be something for me todo.
     
    The biggest thing is that I'm always thinking about getting some recording done, but I just never seem to find the time and inspiration at the same time.  That and when ever comes time to sing a track I get all paranoid about the other people in my house.  It was alittle better back when I used to record up at the church, but these days I'm to lazy to haul all my equipment up there.
     
    By the way, I switched my acoustic to medium strings and it has completely changed the way the thing plays and sounds...  It is sweet.
     
     
    Ok, I thought I had something else fun to say, but I guess not.
     
    HO ho ho
    Ryan out
    December 06

    I love my (brother's) Playstation

    Hmmm... I've needed a night like tonight for awhile.
     
    Ok, I've needed a night like tonight for the last three days... but that can feel like a long time.  What is so special about tonight?  I have nothing to do!!  I can just sit about and play on my computer or guitar or playstation or even take a nap if I so wished.
     
    Up till now I've just been doing different things on the computer: checking Bank acount statements, listening to music, and... wow.  I don't know how I just wasted the last 2 hours...  But, alas, wasted them I have.
     
    I should probably change my strings on my acoustic guitar since I broke the one on sunday (always makes for an exciting worship time when a string breaks in the middle of it...), but I just can't seem to quite convince myself to do it yet.  But I will.
     
    Then after I take care of the rest of the things on my "to do" list I will probably take the rest of my night and spend it with the Playstation.  What game? Final Fantasy 9.  Great game. Great story.  Great fun.  It's like watching a really long interactive movie, but one that has a really good story.
     
    Anyways...
    Gonna stop typeing now...
    November 17

    Everything old is new again pt.2

    Hurray for "Delirious?"!
     
    I love this band.
     
    I've also desided I love thier new CD: Mission's Bell.
     
    It is sweet.
     
    Delirious has had this thing about trying to make a sweet rock album every other record.  King of Fools was their first real album (we won't include the Cutting Edge tapes...), and it definately had its foundation in worship.  Then there was Mezzamorphis, their first real attempt at hitting it big in the main stream.  This album was sweet, and was definately the best Delirious "rock" album, but it didn't get the attention it deserved in the main stream.  To up its sales in the US, the Christian label release added 2 new worship tracks ("Kiss Your Feet" and "Jesus Blood").  On one of their final tour stops, the band finished a set with "History Maker" and as the audience just took the song over and began to truely worship, they realised that they really wanted to write and record songs that captivated audiences in worship again.  Hense, Glo was born.
     
    Glo was a straight up worship album, but it was definatly done in a Delirious rocked up way.  Sales were huge with the Christian markets (esp. in the USA), but was completely over looked by the main stream.  As much as the band enjoyed this album, they felt that they were getting away from their primary audience, the lost soul.  So they planned their next album as a big rock event.  The focus of AudioLessonOver, or Touch (American version) was more on the music than the previous albums, and the lyrics became more ambigious.  It dudded.  It did get a little attention from the main stream, but nothing that would be considered a great success, and with out the worship focus, the American audience didn't buy it.
     
    A few years ago Delrious released yet another album, World Service, and it was very worship focused.  However, it did include a number of songs that didn't exactly fit the worship mold.  It was a good album, and for the first time it seemed as though the band had begun to find its balance.
     
    Now we have Mission's Bell, released just this week in the UK (I don't know when it's coming out over here), and I preordered mine, and I have it.  :)
     
    It's sweet, and yes, I know I already said that.
     
    They found their balance alright.
     
    It's fun, it's edgy, it's worshipful, it's powerful, and it's a declaration.  A war is coming, and the Church needs to rise up and prepare for battle.  God's people need to be ready:
     
    You know I feel the sky's
    About to break now.
    You know I feel out city's
    Gonna shake now.
    And we hear You call:
    Every woman and man,
    "Ring the mission bell"
    and storm the gates of hell.
     
    Miracles run from street to street,
    Rise up church for a holy meet.
    We're gonna paint this big old town red!
    We're gonna paint this big old town red
    with the blood of Jesus!
     
    Yeah... I 'm ready.
     
    By the way, don't say it's cheese, alright, I know...
     
     
    EVERYONE BUY A DELIRIOUS ALBUM RIGHT NOW!!!
    November 15

    Everything old is new again.

    Good day everyone!
     
    It is I, Ryan, here with greetings of joy and happiness.
     
    I've changed things up a bit to represent the way it will look outside by the time 3 days go by.  That's right people, snow is on the way.
     
    Now, to be honest, i really am not a fan of the snow, but for some odd reason I've just had this really really strong feeling of expectancy going into this fall and now winter.  I don't really know what I'm expecting, but I know in my spirit that what ever it is, it is going to be sweet.
     
    :)
     
    Worship:
     
    I'm in the midst of a hymn renewal effort right now.  With the "worship survey" being circulated around the church right now, I kind of figure that when they get back I'm going to be told "do this type if song and this type of song... and blah blah blah, so I'm trying to get a head start on working over some hymns to make them a bit more "friendly" to the guitar and the to the flow of worship.
     
    We did the David Crowder version of All Creatures last week, and I think I've done a descent job on updating "Just As I Am," but we'll find out for sure this sunday.
     
    Bowling:
     
    Apparently, I suck at bowling now: I scored under 100 twice last night, and my over game was only 114 or somewhere around that.
     
    Steven Curtis Chapman:
     
    Last night I was invited to goto a concert in Grand Rapids with some girls, and if it was almost anyother concert I think that I would go because that would probably prove to be quite fun... but...  I WILL NOT GOTO A STEVEN CURTIS CHAPMAN CONCERT {period}
     
    Then, as if to encourage me further, they say Mercy Me is going to be there too.  WOO HOO!!! (sarcasm implied)
     
    I don't mind Mercy Me, they are one of the better CCM bands and are good people who want to lift up Jesus, but to be honest, I really don't want to goto one of their concerts either.  So, when asked about it next, I will say that don't want to go... or be talked into doing something that I really don't want todo by girls...  jeesh...
     
    Ok, Ryan out.
    November 13

    Spanglish

    So I was at the Koontz's tonight and while I was waiting for Ron to finish his game of NCAA Football (we (me, Steven, and Ron) have a dynesty going... much fun.) so I could play mine, Steven turned to Spanglish, which was just starting on Showtime (or maybe HBO, I don't really know...).
     
    Wowzers.
     
    What a movie.
     
    It is basicaly a movie about what I used to fear my life would become.  Adam Sandler plays a succesful Chief (shef) who is married to a stay at home mom.  The only problem being that Adam's charecter is an INFP who really is more interested in spending time with family and shys away from his success at work.  Mean while, his wife is an ESTJ with a low selfesteem trying to find her own worth (she feels she is nothing more than the bagadge of a succesful man).  Being complete opposites in personality, they don't cummunicate very well and she has a way of completely running over him (not to mention being a very insensitive mother)...
     
    But I get ahead of myself, because the movie is really about a dear single mother from Mexico, who (at the begining of the film) speaks no English, but still manges to get a job as a house cleaner/nanny/assistant with the above family.  The mexican lady is an ENFJ, and she begins to find herself more and more involved with the family, and evetualy her own daughter gets mixed in too.
     
    So the basic premiss of the movie (without giveing to much away) is that this kind sensitive guy (protrayed as the rare "super" guy whom that all women dream marrying) is married to a very messed up woman (protrayed as the over analytical detatched needy woman that all men fear) and they hire a nice woman from Mexico to help out around the house (protrayed as the careing mother figure who really cares about the people around her).  The wife is searching self respect, and the guy is just looking for someone he can connect with (just as hint, many people say that INFPs and ENFJs are perfect matches...  :)  ) and the Mexican is just looking out for her daughter.  Chaos ensues.
     
    Great movie.  Great charecter work.  Great Great Great.
     
    I will probably by this movie someday.
     
    Gave me happy feelings.
     
    Ok, I've got to goto sleep now so I can be fresh for worship tomorrow.
     
    God bless all.
    Ryan